profile eugenia is currently studying in nus fass she misses the times spent with her lovely friends in anderson junior college and her days in that blue and grey uniform shouting across that big empty space twelve june is an important date and white is a nice and pretty colour everyone should smile and be happy because smiling is good for health just like brocolli she is a child of God and she trusts because everything is in His hands(: affiliates 2307!(: gpblog ajdance(: arica ashley beishan beverly brenda cedardance(: charissakwok charmainechoy chloe chunmeng cicilaahh clarissa dione ethel evelyn geraldine huiyi jalene jasmin jeremy jiamin joelmo joshuachee joshualoke julian lorraine mabel natalie nigel pastorkenny pastormary rachelchan samanthaleo samgoh serena serene shawnlim shawnng steph syeyuet terry thomas weijie weijun wenyuan youying yuanyin tagboard credits skin by: jane |
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
tmr's the last day of this year. this year flew past so, so fast. so many things happened in the year, both good and bad, i guess. i dont know. there are stuffs i regret, stuffs i learnt, and i hope to say that i've matured through the year, okay maybe not in some sense. this year, i went through alot. hurt, betrayal, joy. i drifted from some friends, and got closer to others. my family, with the exception of one member, i shall not say who, became closer and tighter. im happy with how close the three of us are now, so unexpected, so different from the past. imagine dione: i dont want to sit with korkor! in the past, and now, we share secrets with each other. how sweet(:   friends, i shall not say who. i cant bring myself to face - now. im stuck in an awkward position. sigh. that's one regret. oh well. i dont know what's going to happen now. but, im glad i became closer to others, especially my dear girlfriends, you know who you are(: they listen, and they dont make unneccessary comments i dont like to hear. and times spent with them are filled with joy, rubbish, and suaning(: i believe we all need each other, thanks dears, i love the four of you truckloads(: A levels would have been hell without them, not like it isnt already but you get what i mean, im sure.  and not forgeting church friends, bestfriend, boyboy!, nuer, mabel and especially constance and ethel(: i know we drifted, but we still came back quite close, and i hope we'll remain close and even closer than before(: and dont be sad if i didnt mention you, i love all of you(:       oh, i drifted from God too. but im starting to draw closer to Him, to be dependent on Him, to learn to trust in Him for everything, and leave everything to Him and draw from His strength. i cannot do without Him, i know i cant. thankyou Lord, let Your will be done. not mine. i regret not studying hard, like really. though it wont help regretting now. sigh. i had a dream about A levels results, and the dream was bad. please God, i know you're a merciful and gracious God, give me the good results i dont deserve. i dont want to not know what to do when i get my results. and something else, i dont know whether it's a regret or not. i dont want it to be, i hope it's not. okay it's not. i learnt stuff the hard way too. love, unconditional love, the importance of trust. i realised trusting is not easy, it really isnt. and loving unconditionally, giving and not expecting anything in return. how is anything really defined? and i think i've come to realise what true happiness is. i want to do something for the unfortunate out there, and see them smile(: Lord, help me to care and love others like how you care and love me. of course this is not all that happened this year, it'll be crazy if i were to write everything down. thankyou Lord, for everything, all the ups and downs this year. thankyou for bringing me through it, for helping me grow(: i dont know whether this year ends on a happy note or not, but oh well, welcome, 2009!(: in 2009, i want to really smile from within. |